Monday, September 28, 2009

Living life in fast forward

Does anyone ever feel like they're living life in fast forward?  I was thinking about it today, and that's how things feel.  Time seems to be speeding by all around me and I have no idea where it's all going.  I mean, I realize I'm working long days, trying to find fun and new things to do with two very active and curious toddlers when I'm not working, and always cleaning up after one thing or another (read here: a shedding malamute, two messy toddlers, a fairly messy husband, etc.).  So, I know the time is going somewhere, but when I look back on my day/week/month, I wonder WHERE did it go and how did I manage to NOT get done so many things I have on my "to-do" list???  

I've at least prioritized one thing lately that's been nagging at me for about a year.  I've been anxious to get the kids readoption done, but for one reason or another haven't.  First, I didn't want to start the process in southern California, as I knew we were moving and didn't want to do that mid-way through.  After that, well... one thing or another has been reason enough for it to slip to the back burner over and over again.  Well, on Friday Joe and I were fingerprinted and today I sent those prints in to CBI in Denver and the FBI in West Virginia!  That's the FIRST step towards the readoption... so I'm finally getting somewhere!  Let's hope those come back quickly and we can move on to the next step!  I also need to work on getting our TRAILS background checks done.  It's wild how different the fingerprinting process alone is in Colorado than it was in California.

In addition to that, I'm bound and determined to finish up a few things around the house soon.  It's sad, but we still have a ridiculous amount of boxes piled up in the garage from our move here in late May.  It's been hard to find the time since we aren't home very much, and when we are, the tornadoes REALLY enjoy helping me, which is not quite as helpful as they'd like to think they're being... :-) So, it keeps getting put off and now that it's getting cool outside, I know winter is just around the corner and I would love to be able to park in the garage before snow falls.  *Sigh*  We'll see.  I also need to finish organizing and setting up the basement.  It's huge and unfinished, so things were just sort of piled up and tossed down there as we moved in.  I have a huge play area for the kids, but it's been taken over by the mess when I go down there in search of something.  I am DETERMINED to get that back into usable order since most of their toys are down there.

This year, I've begun my Christmas shopping early.  Just some casual "Cra*gsli*t" shopping to find some neat things for cheap.  Our new income situation has forced me to plan ahead and really get smart with my shopping.  I've already picked up some great stuff, and also found them new jackets and snow boots!!!  Now, if only I could find someone with free sod, landscaping rock, and labor to put it it!  I'm dreading the idea of having a yucky muddy yard all winter.  Not much fun to go play in!  We'll see... for now it's a pipe dream.  

All this leads me into my next goal.  I'm starting to think about returning to the work force - for real.  Not that I'm not really working, I guess I more mean that I think I should be looking for IT jobs that would land me a salary and benefits.  We could REALLY use that, and it would take a load of stress off as our business is still a baby and it's a struggle to find the money to support our personal needs as well as keep fueling the business.  I still feel like my role there is important, but I think I may be able to help Joe from the sidelines more and find someone that can just run the front desk.  Soon, we'll have a book keeper and an accountant handling the ugliest part of the business (in my opinion - that stuff is NOT fun for me!), and then I think I'd be comfortable stepping down.  I would/will miss spending my days around Joe, and enjoying the ability/freedom to take days off whenever needed to take care of sick kids, etc.... but I guess it's about doing the smart thing, not the easier.  Right?  

Ugh... I still think about how nice it'd be to go back to just being home with the kids too!  I always felt so negative about having someone else take care of my kids all day long, five days a week.  It seems like THEY are the ones "raising" them.  I realize that's not completely the case, and I DO see a lot of positives about daycare, now that they've been there awhile.  Their language is REALLY blossoming, and I think that's in part to being around so many different people and kids of various ages.  They have actual "lesson" type of things, so they may be learning a larger variety of things than they were at home playing with me... not that I wasn't always trying to teach the, and not that they weren't learning... I don't know.  Maybe I'm just trying to see the positives.

Today, the kids are home sick and I am sitting here writing a post I really don't have time for.  I haven't vacuumed in a few days, so it's like a giant fluffy layer of hair is coating the carpet (ewww, I know!).  Malamutes are GREAT dogs, but they sure do shed a lot twice a year!  I had better get back to reality.  I'll post some random pictures really quickly to appease those that have been asking for them!

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